1 month ago
I’m a killer. Cold and wrathful. Silent sleeper. I’ve been inside your bedroom. I’ve murdered half the town. Left you love notes on their headstones. I’ll fill the graveyards until I have you.
Moonlight walking. I smell your softness, carnivorous and lusting… to track you down among the pines. I want you stuffed into my mouth. Hold you down and tear you open, live inside you. Oh, love I’d never hurt you. But I’ll grind against your bones until our marrows mix. I will eat you slowly.
I wake in terror. Blackbirds screaming. Dark cathedrals spilling midnight on their alters. I’m your servant. My immortal. Pale and perfect. Such unholy heaving. The statues close their eyes. The room is changing. Break my skin and drain me. Ancient language speak through fingers. The awful edges where you end and I begin… Inside your mouth… I cannot see… There’s catastrophe in everything I’m touching as I sweat and crush you. And I hold your beating chambers until they beat no more. You die like angels sing.
You’re a ghost, love… Nightgown flowing… Your body blue and walking along the continental shelf. You are a dream among the sharks, beautiful and terrifying, living restless. We dance in dark suspension. And you bury me in the ocean floor beneath you where they’ll never hear us scream.
Never so much blood pulled through my veins
2 months ago
I know I can be a little stubborn sometimes, a little righteous and too proud. I just wanna find a way to compromise, cause I believe we can work things out. I thought that I had all the answers, never giving in. But since you’ve gone I admit I was wrong. How am I ever gonna get rid of these blurs? I’m so lonely all the time. Everywhere I go I get so confused. You’re the only thing that’s on my mind. I miss you more each day. Only you can make it right. No… I’m not too proud to say. All I know is I’m lost without you. I’m not gonna lie. How am I gonna be strong without you? I need you by my side. If we ever say we’d never be together, in the end you wave goodbye, I don’t know what I’d do. I’m just lost without you. If I could only hold you now and make the pain just go away. I can’t stop the tears from running down my face.
2 months ago
I’ve got it all, but I feel so deprived. I go up, I come down and I’m emptier inside. Tell me what is this thing that I feel like I’m missing and why can’t I let it go?
I’ve got the time and I’m wasting it slowly. Here in this moment I’m half-way out the door onto the next thing, I’m searching for something that’s missing.
I’m always waiting on something other than this. Why am I feelin’ like there’s something I missed? Always…
There’s gotta be more to life than chasing down every temporary high to satisfy me. Cause the more that I’m tripping out thinking there must be more to life… Well it’s life, but I’m sure there’s gotta be more. I’m wanting more.
2 months ago
Those crumbled tablets were to share a story with a burning bush
Where is that voice from nowhere to remind us that the holy ground we walk on, purified by native blood, has rooted trees who’s fallen leaves now color coat a savored list of demands
Who among us can give translation of autumn hues to morning news?
The anchorman thrown overboard has simply rooted us in histories repeating cycle.
A nation in its saddened years that wont acknowledge karma
Where is the voice from nowhere, the ones your prophets spoke of?
There are voices from fear disconnected from their diaphragms, dangling from coffee covered teeth that spill into our laps and scorch our privates
There are voices from the sides of necks, some already noosed, dangling participles pronouns running for sentence
Serving life in corner offices and ghetto corners, their voices are the same
Dead to themselves, numb to the possibility of truth existing beyond that which they can palm in their hands, period
There are voices of elders, which seem to do no more than damn us to our childish ways
For in many households, wisdom no longer comes with age
So where is that voice from nowhere, that burning bush, that passing dove?
I hear the voices of generals calling for ammunition, presidents calling for arms, women calling for help
Where is that voice from nowhere, that god of Abraham?
Can he be heard over the gunfire, the whiz of passing missiles, the crash of buildings, the cries of children, the crack of bones, the shriek of sirens?
Or is that his mighty voice
Your angry god craving the sacrifice of early generations sons degenerate
Your holy books written in red ink on burning sands
Your prayers between rounds do no more than fasten the fate of your children to the hammered truth of your trigger
A truth that mushrooms its darkened cloud over the rest of us
So that we too bear witness to the short lived fate of a civilization that worships a male god
Your weapons are phallic, all of them
That dummy that sits on your lap is no longer a worthwhile spectacle
His shrunken pale face leaves little room for imagination
We have spotted your moving lips and have pinned the voice to its proper source
It is a source of madness
It is a source of hunger, of power
A source of weakness
A source of evil
We have exited your coliseum and are encircling your box-office, demanding our families back, our cultures back, our rituals back, our gods back, so that we may return them to their proper source
The source of life, the source of creation, our mothers womb, the great goddess
We will cut through the barbwire hangers and chastity belts
We will climb in and incubate our spirits to the winter
We will wait through the degenerate course of your repeated history
We will wait for the past to die
